In a few weeks, I will be a mother.
It seems strange that the tiny moving parts inside of me will soon be here for the world to meet and for us to love and care for. I don't know if baby will be a boy a girl, early or late. I am telling myself late. I am telling myself I still have time to do the things that I would like to do before the baby arrives.
So many things to do:
Finish decorating the nursery
Shop for last minute baby items
Get car seats properly strapped into the cars
Practice pain management techniques for labor
Finish up at my job
Some last minute cleaning and organizing
Some painting
Make curtains
Some crafts for baby
Freezing food
Stocking up on supplies
Or maybe it's not really a lot of things to do, but I feel daunted.
In my yoga class, our instructor said that we spend a lot of time, most of our time, doing. We're doers. We make lists and do stuff and make new lists and do more stuff. Yes, yes, this is true. I relate to this. She said that we do not spend enough time just being. Just living in the moment. And, she said, in many ways, labor is about being in the moment.
So maybe what I really need to do, to prepare for this baby as best I can, is to try to live in the moment more. To practice awareness of the moment, even as I'm doing and even as I'm checking things off of my list. To not stop completing items on my list, but to focus on awareness of the moment, the beauty of the moment, as I decorate the nursery, shop for baby items, and live these last few weeks in joyful, rather than fearful, anticipation and awareness of baby's arrival.
It seems strange that the tiny moving parts inside of me will soon be here for the world to meet and for us to love and care for. I don't know if baby will be a boy a girl, early or late. I am telling myself late. I am telling myself I still have time to do the things that I would like to do before the baby arrives.
So many things to do:
Finish decorating the nursery
Shop for last minute baby items
Get car seats properly strapped into the cars
Practice pain management techniques for labor
Finish up at my job
Some last minute cleaning and organizing
Some painting
Make curtains
Some crafts for baby
Freezing food
Stocking up on supplies
Or maybe it's not really a lot of things to do, but I feel daunted.
In my yoga class, our instructor said that we spend a lot of time, most of our time, doing. We're doers. We make lists and do stuff and make new lists and do more stuff. Yes, yes, this is true. I relate to this. She said that we do not spend enough time just being. Just living in the moment. And, she said, in many ways, labor is about being in the moment.
So maybe what I really need to do, to prepare for this baby as best I can, is to try to live in the moment more. To practice awareness of the moment, even as I'm doing and even as I'm checking things off of my list. To not stop completing items on my list, but to focus on awareness of the moment, the beauty of the moment, as I decorate the nursery, shop for baby items, and live these last few weeks in joyful, rather than fearful, anticipation and awareness of baby's arrival.
